This is from Happily Homeless (my mom- who also happens to be the other half of MoonStruck and my dad- who died April 21, 2013). I wanted to share this with all of you. It has brought a sense of peace, hope and above all, a message of Great Love. We should all be so lucky to experience such a blessing…
~This is long but bear with it. A woman spoke to me last night at a womens’ circle that I attended. Unsolicited, expecting nothing from me. And proceeded to tell me things from Handsome Husband. I’m an all kinds of skeptical person at times. There are 2 phrases in this from him that are, word for word, things that he spoke either about me or directly to me. And the part about being a team? We said that to each other frequently, especially in hospice. This is what Susan said to me and then emailed to me:
“Please know that our sharing is a great blessing for me, too. It was a privilege to be the conduit of that hug and feel the boundless, unconditional love between you. He says, “You may have your doubts (in life) but NEVER DOUBT THAT.” (The love you share). And he emphasizes “share”, in the present tense, saying, “It is alive still, and I am alive, more than I have ever been, more than I could ever dream. It’s so beautiful. We’ve been a lot of places, but this place beats ’em all! I can’t wait to show you, and you know I’ll be there when you come, but don’t you go hurrying! You’ve still got stuff to do, and I’ll be there to help you, every step of the way, because that’s how we do things. We made an agreement, didn’t we? To stick together. We can’t let a little thing like this slow us down. Keep your head up, I’ve got you!” And he likes the pink and the new hair and says it’s sexy! Now I was hesitant to write that, but he assures me you’re okay with it. And there’s something else he’s telling me. While he is light-hearted and humorous, he’s serious about this, and if he could place his hands on both your shoulders and look you straight in the eye and say this, he would. He says, “Don’t go feeling bad for me. Don’t feel guilty.” He wants you to open your heart (as you said last night) and when the times comes to receive the love, to go forward fully, without reservation. That love is good, that love for one doesn’t diminish love for another, and if it comes your way, embrace it because it’s all One. “I’d give it all to you, but you already have it.” And he smiles as he says this, like a parent watching their child take its first steps, because he says you know deep down that it’s true. He also says to give you more credit than that! And infers to me that “She might be small but she’s a pistol!” That when you set your mind to something, you do it, and he’s laughing now, saying “It would take a bigger man than me to get in her way!” He liked to watch you in action, that you’re a little powerhouse, a little tank! That the car suits you perfectly. “One thing my wife is not: subtle!” Of those who have communicated with me over the years, I must say that he is the most fun, simply because his simplicity, lightheartedness, and humor are just contagious. He puts one at ease immediately, and you just know that all is well.
About the bell: I want to elaborate about how the bell is the buddhist symbol for the divine feminine wisdom and the emptiness that contains All; about how it is a call to mindfulness, and being in the present moment; about how I know these things because of my familiarity with buddhism and that he would know that I know and would make that connection, but I suspect you may find yourself hearing bells at just the right times and he says he wants to “have fun with it”. As for his comment about, “I heard bells!”, it is not uncommon for those who are transitioning to hear the celestial music. I was incredibly blessed to hear such a thing while in a light sleep recently, and it was the most glorious sound I’ve ever heard, like an ocean of tiny glass bells in scintillating harmony. It was truly the sound of joy.
Pay attention to the signs, both metaphorically/metaphysically, and the road signs. Things will catch your eye; let them inspire you. When this happens, he says, “Just smile and keep going!”
“I won’t leave you without a map.”
I told you last night that I know you will succeed; he tells me now (and proudly): “She already did!”
Additionally, he communicated to her last night, and she to me, the words “Of all that was good in my life, the greatest gift was you.” In one of our few private conversations in hospice, those were his words, followed by “Saying goodbye to “us” is the hardest part of all of this.”
MoonStruck 