We all have them. Sometimes they seem too high. Sometimes we don’t set them high enough. The topic came up today while the other half of MoonStruck and I were sitting by a fountain in a outdoor shopping area. Do we as women want too much? I look at my life and it’s pretty good. Married to a man I love, live in a nice home, my “jobs” consist of teaching and doing things I am passionate about and yet, there still seems to be this looming sensation that “something” is missing. I need more. Are my expectation to unrealistic?
I don’t have children, which gives me the freedom and flexibility to come and go and do things as I please, but would having them be enough to fulfill me? Personally, I don’t believe so (and believe me, I would love to be a mother!). I know there are mothers out there who live and breathe their children and that is wonderful if that is their path, but do they want anything more than that? Because I don’t currently have kids, I have expressed to my husband that I need more from our marriage. Not that it is even remotely close to being awful- we deeply love one another and share much in common- but I want to be so head-over-heels in love with one another that we make people nauseous. I want us to live in our own private world that only we have access to. I want more passion and adventure!
Now I am not limiting this to my marriage only. I want all of these things to cross every aspect of my life. I feel like I need more magic in my waking moments. I believe life should be colorful, full of whimsy and rich with love. Much of this is fully present in my world, but I feel like there could be more. It seems easy to speak the words and have the ideas- however, I find myself yearning to translate these affirmations into a daily living practice. I seem to have this idea that once I actually open MoonStruck, this will provide the space that inspires these actions. Almost as though it will become some sort of temple for me. I thrive in the company of strong, creative and passionate women. I am inspired by inspiration.
Certainly each moment is a choice. How will I choose to receive this moment? Will I see it as an opportunity to grow? Will I look beyond the surface to find the magic within? When life is happily and smoothly sailing by, the response is easy. The world is seen through rose colored glasses and we act accordingly. But it is in those times of discomfort, pain and/or struggle that we find ourselves challenged. I suppose this is what most of us are constantly trying to “work” through. The idea of being in a constant state of bliss just does not seem very realistic to most. So, does that mean that my expectations are just too far out there? If I continue to surround myself with positive and magic-like beings, is it possible to achieve this state of existence? I know the choice ultimately comes from within, but perhaps invoking this energy from as many sources as possible will allow the energy to permeate my soul until it has no other option other than to be joyous and magical at all times. It is a work in progress.
In the meantime, I will continue to leave a trail of glitter wherever I walk, keep my wish box full of wishes and admire my new little snow globe that holds my totem (an elephant).
MoonStruck 